Sad, glad

Sad: went back to work today.

Glad: got a lot done. Working on a radar/rainfall project with an engineer from Knoxville. I eat this stuff up. Working on a winter weather safety talk for the DOE in Oak Ridge. Working on a talk on weather forecasting to the Kentucky-Tennessee Water Environment Managers conference as an invited speaker. Cool, huh?

Sad: went back to work today. Did I already mention that?

Glad: Stevie brought Beau to work so Mary (my girlfriend) could see him. Everyone oohed and ahhed. Even the guys. Thanks, Stevie. You are such a good mother. I'm so proud of you. And TK is a great dad. I have the best children in the world. Sorry for you other other people with substandard offspring.

Sad: they leave tomorrow morning.

Glad: I get to take them to the airport and visit a little longer.

Sad: it's snowing and the temperature is about 12 and the wind is blowing.

Glad: no seminary in the morning.

Sad: no seminary in the morning.

Glad: Loni and Chris came over tonight. Chris "awesomed" when he saw my Super Blackhawk 44 Magnum single action revolver. We hit it off. The guy talks as much as me.

Glad again: I rode 14 more miles to Silver Cliff, MN. See the pics above. Beautiful. I need to ride my motorcycle up there in the summer on a solo road trip. I need to get a few more things done on my bike, perhaps get it pimped out by surprise from someone who loves me enough to surprise me with a pimped out bike...

Sad: I'm tired and going to bed so I might miss something.

Glad: I'm tired and going to bed so that I might miss something.

Last thought: I was holding Beau in the back bedroom tonight because was fixing his bottle in the kitchen. Beau is such a good boy, he was laying there cooing at the ceiling talking to his special heavenly friends. I picked him up and kissed him and told him I loved him so much. He bent his head forward to touch my cheek with his forehead. I'm sure he did it on purpose to express his love and not just because his head bobs all over the place. I had this thought: I would love him even if he did not realize it, or express his love back to me. But if he DID express his love back to me, oh, how celestial it would be. It would simultaneously lift my heart and break it with joy. Do you understand? I'm sure God feels the same way about His children. He does everything for us because he loves us, make is rain on the just and the unjust. All he wants is for us to express our love for him and be good to each other. He understands that we cannot perfectly express our love. He understands that life sometimes gets in the way of our feeling that way, but he wants us to try. After thinking about this a few moments ago, I took the time to pray and express my love and gratitude to Heavenly Father for my family, the gospel of Jesus Christ, and all my blessings. I just told him I loved him and, in effect laid my forehead on his cheek for a moment. It might have looked like I was just bobbing my head all over the place, like a baby who cannot quite control his head, but I meant for it to go to his cheek. It was all I could do in my poor mortal state. He understood and appreciated it and I felt his love very strongly for a moment.

Try it.